Day 15

Hey All!

It’s been a few days since any new posts. And we’re now midway through January. So now begs the question, how are we all doing with our resolutions?

I’ll start. I’m doing okay. To be transparent with you, I just spent about five minutes writing, rewriting and deleting that sentence. That’s because my initial response was that I’m not doing well at all. And I kept going back and forth with how honest I wanted to be with that statement. Then I thought, “well, I’m not doing THAT bad. I have done such and such”. But then I recanted that thought because I felt what I had done was not enough to count as working towards my resolutions.

Let me break that down a bit. One of my resolutions, as mentioned in an earlier post, is to get healthy. I know, that’s practically everyone’s resolution. And most of us don’t stick with it very long, if at all. Truthfully, I did meal prep twice. And both times I was very meticulous with tracking my macros/micros. However, I have yet to go do a single workout. And the amount of times I cheated on my own meals/meal plans was ridiculous. But with that said, I did still meal prep. Another resolution was to be a very active blogger. Admittedly, I have not made as many posts as I had wanted. But, I have still posted. Another goal of mine, which I do not believe was mentioned prior, was to be kinder to myself. Being kinder to myself includes not lingering in negativity or anxiety the way I normally would. That is much easier said than done. Now, 2019 has not started the best. I have already dealt with situations that are stressful, anxiety ridden, negative, painful, and traumatic. I am respectful of situations and feelings. Meaning, I give each of them their due respect in regards to time to process them. But in the past, I gave them too much time. This year, I am not giving more of myself than is necessary. In other words, I’m not dwelling. I’m not lingering. I am dealing with things, and then moving on with my life.

That right there, my friends, is why I could not allow myself to say that I am not doing well at all. Because when I sat down and really thought about it, I am making strides towards my goals. It’s not always easy. And at times I haven’t even been aware of it. But I have ingrained so deeply into my mindset that this year, 2019, I am changing my life. It was a mantra I repeated to myself for months. It worked. I am doing it. In little steps each day, I am working on my resolutions.

So here we are, January 15th, 2019. Mid way through the first month. Now that you know how I am doing, how are you doing? After some self evaluation, I feel like I’m on the right path. I feel that I will achieve all I’m setting out to accomplish this year. And a nice side affect of that is that I also have some self appreciation. I haven’t felt that in a long time. And that feels so good.

Oh so good 🙂